While Paris Hilton has antecedently opened up astir the maltreatment she said she suffered astatine respective boarding schools she attended as a teenager, the DJ and businesswoman is sharing adjacent much details astir her harrowing acquisition successful her Paris: The Memoir. Paris issues a trigger informing earlier opening up astir the trauma she endured during the 2 years she spent astatine assorted CEDU (CEDU Educational Services, Inc.) schools, including Provo Canyon School successful Utah. 

Paris archetypal recalls begins with being dragged retired of her furniture successful the mediate of the night. "My caput instantly went to the obvious," Paris writes. "I'm astir to beryllium raped. I'm astir to beryllium murdered. Here the representation shatters—a breached reflector successful my mind. Two men. Hands connected me."

From there, Paris details being repeatedly strip-searched, verbally and physically abused and "force-fed drugs intended to dull my wits and marque maine comply." 

The 42-year-old writes that she made aggregate flight attempts from the schools, but was ever recovered and brought backmost to the facilities, including 1 time where they "beat the s--t retired of" her upon her return. 

In February 2021, Paris testified successful a Utah tribunal against Provo Canyon School successful enactment of a measure focused connected ending maltreatment successful the state's congregate attraction facilities. In describing her alleged experiences astatine the institution, she said, "I was verbally, mentally and physically abused connected a regular basis.​ I was chopped disconnected from the extracurricular satellite and stripped of each my quality rights."

The measure was yet passed and Paris continues her advocacy enactment for survivors of the "Troubled Teen Industry" through her 11:11 Impact Foundation.

In a connection shared to E! News successful October 2022, the Provo Canyon School said that the boarding schoolhouse "was sold by its erstwhile ownership successful August 2000."

"What we tin accidental is that the schoolhouse provides a structured situation teaching life-skills, providing behavioral wellness therapy, and continuing acquisition for younker who travel to america with pre-existing and analyzable emotional, behavioral and psychiatric needs," the connection read. "These younker person not been palmy successful emblematic location and schoolhouse environ

Paris says she was raped astatine 15 by a lad she knew who invited her to his location erstwhile they ran into each different astatine the mall. After helium kept encouraging her to portion vino coolers, Paris writes that she doesn't retrieve overmuch astir what happened next, conscionable "broken pieces. Fragments. Echoes. White noise. Black silence."

"I became alert of a crushing value connected me," Paris recalls. "Suffocating me. Cracking my ribs. I felt a jolt of panic and tried to get up, but the impulse was lost, arsenic if thing had severed my spinal cord. When I tried to scream, determination was nary aerial successful my lungs. All that came retired was a small, raspy 'stop...what's happening?' Until this feline clamped his manus implicit my mouth—like, aggressively—like, hard."

Prior to her assault, Paris says she had planned to stay a virgin until marriage, but past chose to person enactment with her then-boyfriend, Tori Spelling's member Randy Spelling, successful an effort to reclaim her narrative. 

"Going forward, it made a overmuch amended 'How I Lost My Virginity' story," she writes. "Once upon a time. With a cute lad who loved me."

While she explains that she's "hardly thought astir it since it happened," Paris admits that reasoning astir the rape made her "feel ruined and embarrassed and sick to my stomach, truthful I shoved it into the deepest, darkest country of my mind. I refused to spot the agelong shadiness it cast."

Just after The Simple Life premiered successful 2003, Paris discovered she was large with her then-boyfriend Jason Shaw's child. "I was terrified and heartsick," Paris recalls. "I felt paralyzed by an anxiousness that took basal successful my assemblage and grew similar poison ivy."

Paris past shares that she decided to get an abortion, which enactment her "at war" with what she had been raised to believe. "No 1 tin ever cognize however hard it is to look this intolerable prime unless she's faced it herself," Paris explains. "It's an intensely backstage agony that's intolerable to explain. The lone crushed I'm talking astir it present is that truthful galore women are facing it, and they consciousness truthful unsocial and judged and abandoned. I want
them to cognize that they're not alone, and they don't beryllium anyone an explanation. When determination is nary close way—all that's near is what is. What you cognize you person to do. And you bash it, adjacent though it breaks your heart."

While she inactive looks backmost connected the acquisition with "sorrow," Paris writes, "I cognize I made the close choice."

"At that infinitesimal successful my life, I was successful nary mode susceptible of being a mother," she continues. "Denying that would person jeopardized the household I hoped to person successful the future, astatine a clip erstwhile I was steadfast and healed."

Even though she describes Pink arsenic "generous, evolved, and progressive," Paris writes that she was disappointed by the singer's 2006 opus "Stupid Girls" aft the enactment portion was leaked without her consent. 

"The full video is simply a not-at-all-subtle send-up of 'porno paparazzi girls' successful wide and, specifically, me, successful a parody of my infamous enactment tape," Paris explains. "Pink sang astir 'outcasts and girls with ambition' and said, 'That's what I wanna see.' But she chose not to spot it successful me."

Paris stresses that she is not "mad" astatine Pink and there's nary "feud" betwixt the 2 women, mostly because, arsenic Paris puts it, "I person the attraction span of a gnat, which means I suck astatine holding grudges. Anyway, choler doesn't help; honesty does."

Before parents Rick and Kathy Hilton chose to nonstop her distant to school, Paris admits that "sometimes her enactment nights went connected for days" and she knew she was "scaring the surviving crap retired of my parents" with her behavior.

"I knew it was cruel. And dangerous," she reflects. "I loved my family, and I hated myself for hurting them. I'm making a existent effort to recognize what this concern was similar for my parents. Because I volition ne'er recognize what they chose to bash astir it."

While Paris reveals that she and her parent haven't spoken often astir the maltreatment she allegedly endured, connected the uncommon juncture erstwhile they bash sermon it, Kathy explains that they enrolled her astatine the schools to "save" her. "She says it with implicit certainty, adjacent now, knowing however it each went truthful wrong," Paris writes. "'You would bash the same.' Not successful a cardinal f--king years, I think, but I don't accidental that retired loud."

Before sharing her relationship of her astatine the boarding schools successful her 2020 documentary This Is Paris, the DJ reveals she had "no intention" of ever sharing her communicative publically earlier "Demi Lovato rocked my world."

Paris explains that she was "stunned" by "how real, vulnerable, and courageous" the vocalist was successful her 2017 documentary Simply Complicated. Pointing to Demi sharing "a achy reckoning with a hard past" successful the film, Paris says she was "inspired by Demi's courage" to talk retired astir her experience.

"Instead of worrying astir what it would mean to my brand," Paris writes , "I started reasoning astir what it would bash to the troubled-teen manufacture if I stepped retired of the shadows and told my truth."

In 2006, a photograph of Paris with Britney Spears and Lindsay Lohan crammed into the beforehand spot of Paris' car caused a popular civilization frenzy. At the time, Paris and Lindsay were successful a analyzable spot of their friendship—so a snapshot of the duo unneurotic with the Princess of Pop unquestionably made headlines, infamously dubbed "The Bimbo Summit" astatine the time. "I didn't emotion the wording, but my bangs looked ace cute," Paris writes. "How often tin you nail that, really? Bangs are tricky."

When the photo's 15th day successful 2021 provoked an introspection of the media's attraction of the 3 women astatine the time, Paris says she besides reflected connected however they had each growns since then.

"I'd conscionable gotten joined and was moving a monolithic media and manner conglomerate," Paris reflects. "Britney had precocious ended the outrageous thirteen-year conservatorship that exerted power implicit her finances and idiosyncratic life. Lindsay had conscionable gotten engaged and was moving connected a nonrecreational comeback. I was gladsome for her."

While she and Lindsay are not "close," Paris says, "I ever privation her well." And erstwhile Britney joined Sam Asghari successful June 2002, Paris was successful attendance and describes the "Piece of Me" vocalist arsenic a "gorgeous angel princess bride."

Fun fact: It was Nicky, not Paris, who archetypal uttered the infamous "That's hot" line, though Paris says that the operation "resonated" with her truthful overmuch erstwhile she archetypal heard it that she wrote it successful her diary.

"It's specified a large statement, isn't it?" she poses. "Positive. Unpretentious. The connection blistery is evocative; there's vigor successful it. If you spot thing you appreciate, outcry it out. Toss a spark of positivity into the world. It's similar 'I spot you'—but hotter."

As for her different catchphrase—"Sliving"—Paris explains that she accidentally invented it during a Halloween enactment respective years ago. 

"I started to accidental 'slaying' but took a crisp near toward 'living your champion life,' and 'sliving' came out," she recalls. "We each died laughing, but I was thinking, That's a large word. Ima trademark that crap similar yesterday. I whitethorn person been somewhat tipsy. But it is simply a large word! It's a question and a lifestyle."

Before she was the breakout prima of The Real Housewives of New York City, the Skinnygirl mogul was Paris and Nicky's babysitter, acknowledgment to her adjacent relationship with their aunt and The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills' formed member Kyle Richards.

Tasked with picking up the Hilton girls from school, Paris shares that Bethenny often took them buying and "sometimes we'd conscionable up with Kyle and spell ice-skating oregon get candy from the Mobile Mart."

Paris was conscionable 12 years aged erstwhile she went to her archetypal club, going to a enactment aft she and her sister Nicky Hilton attended a New Kids connected the Block performance with Pia Zadora. Paris was instantly drawn to the enactment scene.

"Unfortunately, conscionable arsenic I was soaking each this in, we bumped into my mom's sister," Paris recalls. "Aunt Kyle was like, 'WTF!' She dragged Pia speech for a brief, hissy speech and past took america home, but I knew I had to spell back."

Shortly after, Paris attempted to sneak into a nine with Khloé Kardashian, who was successful mediate schoolhouse astatine the time, truthful she enactment "full makeup, a agelong reddish wig, and a floppy achromatic hat" connected the aboriginal world star. "I told her," Paris remembers, "'If anyone asks, your sanction is Betsey Johnson.'"

Friends since they were young children, Paris and Nicole Richie went connected to co-star successful 5 seasons of The Simple Life from 2003 to 2007, though they had a falling-out astir the clip the amusement ended. They've since quashed their beef, with Nicole attending Paris' wedding successful November 2021.

"Nicole Richie and I were thrust oregon dice from our unspeakable twos," Paris writes, "and we'll enactment that mode until the satellite ends. Nicole is truthful genuinely benignant and sweet, she catches radical disconnected defender with her raunchy one-liners, and the absorption she gets from radical is drama gold. Comedy has to beryllium fearless, and Nicole doesn't hesitate."

Paris besides reveals that The Simple Life producers initially envisioned the Hilton sisters fronting the Fox world amusement and though she "begged Nicky to bash it with me," Paris says their parents were not into the idea, nor was Nicky. "'Don't beryllium insane,' Nicky said," Paris recalls. "'You'll embarrass yourself.'"

Paris archetypal met The Kardashians world prima erstwhile Faye Resnick recommended she prosecute Kim to signifier her wardrobe and the 2 formed an instant connection. Paris adjacent describes the SKIMS laminitis arsenic 1 of the fewer radical she could "trust and beryllium on" astatine the time. 

"Kim had started a concern wherever she went into the closets of celebrated people, took immoderate they didn't love, and sold it connected eBay," Paris explains. "It was genius and generated tens of thousands of dollars for foundation and amusive money. She did an unthinkable job, and we had truthful overmuch amusive moving together. We balanced each other. I was a disorganized nighttime owl; Kim was an businesslike aboriginal riser."

Still, Paris recalls giving the aboriginal KKW Beauty laminitis a portion of proposal she evidently took to heart.

"Kim Kardashian and I were making frittata and French toast coated with Frosted Flakes for meal 1 morning," Paris shares, "and she said, 'I don't cognize anyone who parties arsenic hard arsenic you bash and looks arsenic bully arsenic you do.' Skin care. Seriously. If you instrumentality thing other from my story, person this: Skin attraction is sacred."