Why Holly Madison Almost Passed connected The Playboy Murders

Holly Madison is ready to spell down the rabbit spread again.

ID's The Playboy Murders is the latest bid to analyse the acheronian corners of the Playboy Mansion. And each of the six episodes exploring murders and mysteries that intersect with the men's mag are hosted and enforcement produced by Madison, a erstwhile Playboy bunny who lived astatine the mansion for 7 years.

But erstwhile the Girls Next Door prima was initially approached astir taking portion in The Playboy Murders, she astir turned it down. 

"I was like, 'Oh no, I person excessively overmuch connected my sheet arsenic it is. I can't bash different Playboy thing,'' Madison told E! News successful an exclusive interview. "But past they sent maine a presumption connected the cases they wanted to screen and arsenic I looked done it, I thought, 'Wow this is simply a amusement I would really emotion to ticker myself, adjacent if I wasn't involved.'"

"I thought I knew it each astir Playboy past and what happened to each the playmates, and I truly didn't," the 43-year-old explained. "There was adjacent 1 communicative wherever a playmate's hubby was murdered due to the fact that a crazed instrumentality had gained entree to her determination done a 1-900 fig they utilized to person the playmates moving backmost successful the '90s. I had nary thought that was ever a happening that Playboy had playmates do."

Each of the six stories being "so different" from her ain was what "intrigued" Madison astir astir the show, she noted: "I could subordinate to these women conscionable due to the fact that of our backgrounds. I truly wanted to beryllium a portion of it." 

While she said it was "a relief" to "have different radical travel retired with stories that corroborated" her ain erstwhile she participated successful the A&E docuseries past year, Madison said the acquisition of proceeding what they went done was difficult.

"When I watched each of the episodes I wasn't in, I would person a nightmare each nighttime aft I watched one," she shared, "because it was conscionable each this brainsick horrible stuff."

Madison admitted that she inactive struggles to header with her acquisition astatine the mansion, but said that her podcast—Girls Next Level, which she co-hosts with her former Girls Next Door co-star Bridget Marquardt—has "been large due to the fact that it's allowed maine to reclaim the bully memories arsenic good and besides enactment done the pugnacious ones."

And Madison credited her narration with Marquardt for changing the "vibe" among the women she erstwhile lived with astatine the mansion.

"We person the benignant of relationship wherever we person ne'er gotten into a fight, we've ever been ace unfastened with each other," Madison shared. "Doing the podcast, I've been truly pleasantly amazed by however unfastened she is astir everything. She's unfastened to talking astir immoderate taxable nary substance however achy oregon perchance disconnected the partition the taxable mightiness be."

In the rewatch series, Madison and Marquardt interrogation erstwhile Playmates astir their idiosyncratic experience, though they've yet to beryllium down with chap Girls Next Door alum Kendra Wilkinson.

"We've ever said she's perfectly invited to travel connected if there's thing she wants to wide up oregon thing she want's to speech about," Madison said of inviting the Kendra connected Top star. "I cognize she doesn't similar talking astir Playboy worldly and I respect that, too."